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March 5, 2010

I thought this will be my month, no work, no duty,no shift..just rest,fun,leisure and some meditations perhaps. I guess I was wrong. Habits are hard to break. I still do some work or at least some work related stuff.

But I'm glad that I'm done with the requirements for the part time job.Things are pretty much going the way I want them to be, got the part time job I wanted, met a good man who's willing to stay with me even though I tried pushing him away...LOL..( *peace* hun), moved to new company. 2010 is pretty much a brand new start of a lot things for me.

Since i was a kid, i always dreamed of becoming a successful woman, a woman who doesnt need a man to make her successful or help her get to where she wanna be. Im still the same kid. I still wanna get my own place, own car, successful business/work career before i give up the single life, settle then start my own family.

Maybe he was right, i should take things easy not be hard on myself, its just that i know i can do so much more, if i try push myself further. I really appreciate him just listening and making me realize things that im missing because i was so much busy working on the future, that i didnt realize that there's a lot of things that i should be enjoying today, the present part of my life.

So i've decided that Hell yeah im gonna enjoy and relax a bit, but then again, its me... habits are hard to break, slacking around, not being productive at all isnt my game. So i''ll try to sit back and take some break as much as I can, but definitely i'd still be working on the future that i have in my mind. I dont know where im going, but i know im going somewhere. i'll sure of that.

Current events:

Another earth quake happened yesterday ( march 04), taiwan got hit with Magnitude 6.4. Thats another addition to the series of earthquakes happening around the globe lately. Aside from this i dont recall any memorable/ unusual event.

Stop.Breathe.Live

March 2

This is my first day to start blogging. I guess I have the whole month of march to do this blogging thing. Im officially a bummer for the whole month. I've been working hard like a dog for the last couple of years. Dragging each day, making ends meet, pushing myself to work harder and reach my goal...that was me for last few years. I got tired, even machines needs some time off. Hmm...one month is a pretty long time, well at least for me. Im not really a total bum, i might be starting off my online part time job anytime as soon as i have passed all the requirements needed.

On a more personal note, im still wondering whether i can really be with someone like my crush,.. iam not sure if im asking too much, am i too idealistic or i just havent met the right one. The last i fell in love, he wasnt the person i want to be with. He didnt match any of my IDEAL man but cupid hit me and no questions asked, no but's no if's... i took the chance to be with him... and i was happy the whole time were together, well there are ups and downs just like any relationship, but it was something worth taking the risk. We were almost a perfect couple, we have common interest..everything seems ok..only thing is that we grew...we grew apart. One day we just realized that were not the same person we were the first time we met and that were like 2 total strangers, tried to work things out but no luck. We had no choice but to part ways before we lose ourselves in a sinking ship.

What are my plans this month: aside from completing the docs and other requirement for my new job and my part time job, I plan to have some good time with my old high school buddies, its been a while since we had a get together event. I should be able to have at least 2 of my wisdom teeth removed, unfortunately its a minor surgery coz my teeth, i mean 3 out of my 4 wisdom teeth is impacted.I hate surgery,needles,hospital,medicine and any health stuff. I just dont believe they can really help.Although sometimes its the only way out.

Alot of weird changes has been happening lately...some for good, some...im hoping will be for good as well.

March 2 will be officially over and part of history in the next 20 mins or so ( based on time on my laptop).

How was this day? pretty easy like im hoping it to be, had few headaches all through out the day, I guess its with my eye, went for a preemployment medical exam yesterday and i found out that even with my glasses on i cant read the snellen chart clearly. Meaning, i need to change my eyeglasses. Uuggh! Too many expenses...

Im hoping tomorrow will be favorable day for me :)

5u-A